Brainstems

So i have been thinking alot lately about how to be happy or what ever and what i have realized is that i have no fucking idea how to be happy. which is kinda scarry. I mean the thinking is that doing the things that you love to do should make you happy. But the reality is that i dont even know what i love. I love to play guitar and sing but if i do that for several hours i find that i get really bored with that too. Not that im saying that is abnormal. What im saying though is that i feel like everything that you do requires energy and eventually wears you out. I mean bordeom is just a lack of interest in what you are doing. It is possible to work past bordeom (which i cant fucking spell) but if you do that where the fuck is the fun. So surely if your not having fun then you are not happy, and if your not happy then why are you doing it. I guess the point that i have come to is that it is not possible to be happy all the time and be successful unless you can find a diffrent kind of happiness in working towards a future improvement. It works like this if you can see that altough i'm bored playing now i will get better if i keep doing it I will become good and when i am good i will be able to play what i want and the will bring me joy and make me happy. I guess this is all kinda stupid. I have been thinking about this alot because for the past two months i haven't done shit during the days. I mean that I would watch tv and or just do what ever all day and by the end of the day i would feel like shit. So I have found now that i have to do the things that are boring, so I am trying to figure out how to do them while still becoming happy.