I can't I won't I don't relate to you.

So i just got the new o=pioneers album. Its fucking awesome. They played with me friend Evans band, You'll Get Yours, in Cincinnati this past monday. I say album instead of CD because you can get the album for free at Quote un Quote Records website (i would suggest giving them a donation though). Quote un Quote is Jeff Rosenstock's brain child, where he realeases Bomb the Music Industry albums along with other bands that he likes. All the albums are free with the hope that you will help by giving them a donation. I have thought for a while that this is a really cool idea. Today kids download albums for free most of the time any ways. To some degree i feel that music stealing is wrong but on the other hand as all diy kids would say, the record companies are making way to much money. I think what will happen eventually is that things will get smaller again. For example right now my friends in Cincinnati have started selling records through mail order much like Asain Man records or No Idea records that employee only a few people but keep costs of albums low by doing things this way. I dunno i guess i like the person to person interation of it. I still dont think that any one reads this. I guess there's not enough nude pictures of me or something.
So i finally updated and personalized this thing to some extent. I like the picture that i have on it now i think its appropriate me in a stupor insulting some one. Sounds famliar.
Well in a some what unexpected turn of events i still dont have a job which is starting to scare me. I have become much more serious about applying for jobs now than i have been so far but in a effort to keep that going i am gonna get off this shit and get back to work.

The words dont fit! I wonder if they ever will?

So once again i have fallen of with this which is fine b/c it is just some thing that i wanna do. So i have been reading alot of books recently. Which is super abnormal for me. I think in the entirty of last year i read a total of 2 books, compared to now where i have read 5 books in the past 3 months. I find a common theme in all the books that i read despite there vastly diffrent subject matter. That is to say that i am not picking books that intentionally deal with the same topics. I am just reading random fiction books that i have always though would be good to read. But back to what i was saying about a common theme. In these books i always seem to see a person struggling to figure out what they define as their belief system. This means that they are trying to decide what is real to them. Which also seems to be a theme in my life. i have spent the past couple weeks thinking mostly about what i actully feel is right or wrong. i have decided that there is a reality to morality, besides basic human rights. Like people should treat each other with respect, which is a lot easier to say than to do. This shit always sounds like i am rambling so just try to stay with me. Like i guess that my parents have their beliefs and i dont believe the same way as they do that doesnt mean that we shouldn't have a basic understanding of morality in common. That would be like saying that its ok to be ingnorant if you just don't really wanna know. If there were an option of ignorance or knowledge i don't think that any one would want to be ignorant, you might still not want to do what ever it is but atleast you would be making the choice.
So what ever that was confusing and confused. The dopamines are coming up to chicago this week end i am excited because i will get to see some of my friends from cincinnati. I really hope that they do decide to stay at my house up here.
Still aint got no job so im kinda getting a bit desperate, i put in like 5 apps on friday i think like two of them are hopefulls. I dont think that i will be able to get a job in a bar at this time because of my lack of experience. Its kinda dumb every one wants you to have experience or they won't hire you, but how do you get experince if no one will hire you? I think it will work out and i will keep working at it. Aparently the easiest way to get in at most venues is to work the door doing security, which i honestly wouldnt mind doing.
Its fucking freezing again which sucks balls and this thing is kinda boring me at the moment, and im sure any one that would be reading this is also watching porn at the same time. so i guess im going to say adios, until tomorrow or when ever don't go changin!

So today is valentines day! whoho lol, im not the biggest valentines day type guy. Its not that i don't love no bodies its more that i just feel like why is there a specific day designated to relizing hey! i love you today. is it more important that you love some one today than on other days. Oh well i am going to celebrate Valentines day with my girlfriend so i guess this is all some what hypocritical lol. mind you don't take the things i say to seriously.
So i watched a whole bunch of SNL skits last night and i realized that Christopher Walken is one funny mother fucker. I think its his delivery that makes him so funny. He is just straight faced through the whole skit while he is saying the craziest shit. Very funny guy. Also there is a skit up now called I'm on a Boat feat. T-Pain it is the fucking best. It is just basically them talking about being on a boat like it were a real rap video. Very funny stuff.
In other news I was playing emo game the other day and re-realized how much i like Mineral. They are kinda slow and some times it can be annoying but there song slower just breaks me down. Its like the perfect mixture of heart felt lyrics and awkwardness.
Gillian, Dane's girlfriend, is here for the weekend which is cool cause this is like only the third time that i have ever met her. She is very sweet and they seem to get along very well. Also on the plus side she has set about making our apartment a sterile well organized enviornment.
It has been a while since i last blogged lol (like two or three days) so i feel like there is alot to say but most of it is probably pretty boring. In fact i think this whole blog has been terribly uninteresting. I think i am starting to do exactly what i said i wouldn't which is catalague my life and the events that take place in it. FUck oh well. The collection of empty liqour bottles on our window sill is steadily growing so there's something to work towards at least. lol

The Weathers Broke and I'm Stoked

So its warm as fuck out side which is amazing. I finally got my tax return back so i have some money, but i can't help being really nervous about spending it because i dont want to have 9 dollars again. Either way i bought a pair of fancy pants that im pretty excited cause i got them on major savings, which means 20 dollars when they should be 54.
I downloaded this new CD called no sleep till Christmas, which has a song by the Wonder Years on it (Christmas at 22). The CD is awesome. Granted that it is Chistmasish songs and it is now february but what ever. These bands actually wrote new songs about how they feel about christmas which i think is cool.
I am still looking for a job but now i am at least putting in more applications. Its easy to say i can't find a job when your not really looking. So i have to get out there and actually do something about it. That still seems like a theme in my life. Doing things, i have to keep doing things no matter what.
tonight is dollar burgers a Bar Louie. this is another item that i am SToked about because burgers are good but cheap burgers are better. I think i will get mine with cheese this time. Well this is getting very stupid i dont know why i put this blog up except that i want to keep blogging even if no one is reading it.
If i have one piece of advice for anyone who should come across this page it would have to be buy more music. Music is not really expensive and it makes you happy. Also if no one buys music peole will no longer be able to support themselves by creating art. I am not saying that downloading music is a bad thing. honestly I think it helps music, because it allows people to hear music that they might not have bought. This in turn will inspire some people to go out and buy music. Of course some people still won't but who really cares that much, because you can make enough money off the people who do buy it. Any ways music is like blood, when it flows into you it brings you life.

Self Discovery is the pits

So i realized today that alot of the things that i thought were what i wanted and where i wanted to be weren't. Quit simply i have built my own prison that i live miserable in at the moment. Soooo after a long discussion with a friend i realized that i have to pick up my momentum... which should be do able. i mean here i am with a fresh start and im just doing the same gay shit that i have been doing the past year aka wasssting it. I have resolved that not doing things is the worst.
I have also made several realizations about my realationship.
In other things i cooked some beens today. It actually took me like three days to do it, but they turned out really well so I don't mind the lengthy process. I mean perhaps it even makes them better because it took me so long. Blink 182 is back together!! Which is really exciting for anyone who was a fan of the band. I am personally rather excited. I think that they will do good things and even if the album they make is horrible i think that i will buy it.
I have come out of a long period of trying to make myself believe that what other people like is what i like. Even if i really did not like it. For instance i don't really like dark beer, I just personally don't like it. The truth is that is fine. I don't need to like anything that i dont like. Even if it seems cool to like that because that is what everyone else does or that is what is sophisticated. I would rather have a light beer and that doesn't make me better or worse than anyone else. I hope that I can apply this to other people. Like when some one is doing something that i don't think is cool, i want to be able to accept and even appreciate them still. I think this sounds stupid but i would like to start being abole to rejoice in just being a human being. Well I think thats all i got for now. Building up steam regain momentum!!!

let the great experiment begin

so tomorrow i am going to a job interview at a place in lincoln park. It is an open interview meaning that they are hiring for all positions so the chance that i could finally get a job are some what up even if it is as some thing like a food runner or bar back it will be something. Sam (my friend) has turned me onto this new show that is on fox called fringe. It's pretty fucking awesome honestly. It's about science that is on the "fringe" of reality things that could be possible but we can't do them. I hope i can write more in here tomorrow after the interview. But just as a note i have been thinking that if you really want to get anywhere in life you have to do things no matter what. Even if at this time it seems meaingless and trivial you should do it. like cleaning or writing. We as humans have the power to create and the act of creating or doing is where we find fullfillment. i guess thats kinda what i am trying to say but not quite. more later, for now sleep

I'm a Jerk

So i have been having these really weird dreams lately. Last night i had a dream that I was driving down the highway in my bed. Not only that but i was asleep in the dream. Some how i could see the road and drive this bed with my eyes shut. If that wasn't odd enough, there was a huge wreck on the highway. so i ended up driving my bed over like 20 lanes of traffic and right into the back of a cop car at a rest stop. Weird ass shit. Anyways this was not really intended to be a journal so i don't think that i will ever really et to in-depth about my meandering life. Something that has been on my mind at the moment, which is a moment after idealy watching youtube videos for a half hour. I have noticed a trend where young black guys are starting to wear tight/skinny geans. Its not very popular yet and i have a feeling that it some what stems from Lil Wayne, but i still think its pretty cool. There is new band called Two tounges which features the singer from say anything and the singer from saves the day and some other guys (i haven't checked who else is in it yet). I have heard the CD, i think it is pretty good but i think they could still do better. to me it sounds like they did not quite mesh the two styles. Like the Max from Say Anything sounds like he is singing say anything songs while Chris from Saves The Day sounds like he is singing for Saves the Day. I think you get what I'm saying. Anyways I still think its interesting and I am always glad to see people trying new things. Well I'm off to the 7-Eleven to get a monster then out to look fo a JOB you herd me.

Off My Chest

so me and my house mate have been discussing, for several days, who would acctually listen to the band Millionaires. I'm not saying that they are good or bad, just that they seem to live a life style where they party constantly and, inevitably, end up blacking-out/exposing themselves/puking. Although this life style does have an appealing nature to me, i get to wondering how is it possible that they can continue on in this path without wearing themselves out. so i have come to a realization that one girl exposing herself or getting naked some times when shes drunk is attractive, one guy getting naked when he's drunk is more than likely creepy, and a group of guys getting naked when they're drunk is more than likely a party. This is just my personal opionion at the moment perhaps it will change in a couple of hours. oh and all of these realizations are based on people posting photos of themselves either naked or exposed on blogs. It's kinda cool but at the same time its kinda awkward. But then again who am i to judge so enjoy what ever it is that you do and GET STOKED ON IT!

My First blog

So i just created this blog spot and i thouht i would put this up in the event that anone stumbles across this blog. I hope to keep it up-dated frequently so that it will be fun and some what informative. There is no real direction that i intend for this blog. So i guess this is the mission statement of sorts. Here goes!...