The words dont fit! I wonder if they ever will?

So once again i have fallen of with this which is fine b/c it is just some thing that i wanna do. So i have been reading alot of books recently. Which is super abnormal for me. I think in the entirty of last year i read a total of 2 books, compared to now where i have read 5 books in the past 3 months. I find a common theme in all the books that i read despite there vastly diffrent subject matter. That is to say that i am not picking books that intentionally deal with the same topics. I am just reading random fiction books that i have always though would be good to read. But back to what i was saying about a common theme. In these books i always seem to see a person struggling to figure out what they define as their belief system. This means that they are trying to decide what is real to them. Which also seems to be a theme in my life. i have spent the past couple weeks thinking mostly about what i actully feel is right or wrong. i have decided that there is a reality to morality, besides basic human rights. Like people should treat each other with respect, which is a lot easier to say than to do. This shit always sounds like i am rambling so just try to stay with me. Like i guess that my parents have their beliefs and i dont believe the same way as they do that doesnt mean that we shouldn't have a basic understanding of morality in common. That would be like saying that its ok to be ingnorant if you just don't really wanna know. If there were an option of ignorance or knowledge i don't think that any one would want to be ignorant, you might still not want to do what ever it is but atleast you would be making the choice.
So what ever that was confusing and confused. The dopamines are coming up to chicago this week end i am excited because i will get to see some of my friends from cincinnati. I really hope that they do decide to stay at my house up here.
Still aint got no job so im kinda getting a bit desperate, i put in like 5 apps on friday i think like two of them are hopefulls. I dont think that i will be able to get a job in a bar at this time because of my lack of experience. Its kinda dumb every one wants you to have experience or they won't hire you, but how do you get experince if no one will hire you? I think it will work out and i will keep working at it. Aparently the easiest way to get in at most venues is to work the door doing security, which i honestly wouldnt mind doing.
Its fucking freezing again which sucks balls and this thing is kinda boring me at the moment, and im sure any one that would be reading this is also watching porn at the same time. so i guess im going to say adios, until tomorrow or when ever don't go changin!