Self Discovery is the pits

So i realized today that alot of the things that i thought were what i wanted and where i wanted to be weren't. Quit simply i have built my own prison that i live miserable in at the moment. Soooo after a long discussion with a friend i realized that i have to pick up my momentum... which should be do able. i mean here i am with a fresh start and im just doing the same gay shit that i have been doing the past year aka wasssting it. I have resolved that not doing things is the worst.
I have also made several realizations about my realationship.
In other things i cooked some beens today. It actually took me like three days to do it, but they turned out really well so I don't mind the lengthy process. I mean perhaps it even makes them better because it took me so long. Blink 182 is back together!! Which is really exciting for anyone who was a fan of the band. I am personally rather excited. I think that they will do good things and even if the album they make is horrible i think that i will buy it.
I have come out of a long period of trying to make myself believe that what other people like is what i like. Even if i really did not like it. For instance i don't really like dark beer, I just personally don't like it. The truth is that is fine. I don't need to like anything that i dont like. Even if it seems cool to like that because that is what everyone else does or that is what is sophisticated. I would rather have a light beer and that doesn't make me better or worse than anyone else. I hope that I can apply this to other people. Like when some one is doing something that i don't think is cool, i want to be able to accept and even appreciate them still. I think this sounds stupid but i would like to start being abole to rejoice in just being a human being. Well I think thats all i got for now. Building up steam regain momentum!!!