I'll Die The Day I find im fucking useless

So i went and saw Dillinger 4 in Chicago one of the few things in the past few years that i have been dying to do. It was honestly amazing. They played pretty much every song of theirs that i wanted to hear, except for SellTheHouseSellTheCarSellTheKidsFindSomeoneElseForgetItI'mNeveroComingBackForgetIt, which is definitely one of my favorites. But i guess while i was riding back on the train all alone at 2am in the morning it just didnt feel right and im not quite sure why so i guess thats when i started to write new thoughs. The reality is that i feel like im on cloud nine for a couple day then all the sudden i feel like im crashing back down to earth with back breaking speed which sucks. Oh well i guess the point is that today is stupid. I have just recently gotten back in touch with an old friend from cincinnati who is sweet as hell so i guess that i will try to hang out with him more. I am hungry and bored so i think that i will do something for my self at this point i have a feeling im not going to get what i want tonight but i think that can be remedied with company. Also i saw my friend joey cook last night at the empty bottle with dane. They are good but not exxactly my cup of tea i me dont get me wrong i like it all. but i guess im just not that into indie, dont really know why. There is some of it that i do like but as a hole i just dont really get into it. It was fun to go out though and see them and it was really nice to get to talk to him a bit. He seems to be doing tremendously i kinda always new that he had it in him but i just didnt know how to get ourselves on the same page. well to conclude i dont really know what i want any more but i know its not this moment.